loneliness.

yeah, sorry but that's the truth.
how long i could live if i'm living in such a life like this? no family support, or even friends believe.siot kan?
this is totally my life, wake up every morning, mandi, breakfast sometimes, talk with ppl that used to call me at the pagi pagi time and pergi sekolah awal with sheena.then when i arrive, my little sheena will be sperated with me which we are in the diffrent class. and when i'm in class ,put my bag on my chair and walk merayau with sheena. talk and talk. then i have to stand up for negaraku song and whatever song, then only i meet eizu, how happy, and talk talk talk.and yeahh, i have to study like 4 hours before i can eat my branch, uhm, such a long time.and go back to study until noon. i'm tired at school, ive got no energy if i didnt meet L. uhm, yeahh, ive met him sometimes but it just for only few damn seconds, its seconds not minutues. siot.and we just pass by and say hye hey hello. that's all. and then day after day my life getting so boring because ANIERA been away for one month and ain are not sitting with me anymore. and as alin sitting so far far away it's difficult for me to talk, laugh and share our stories.
it's a tiring situation because sheena in the diffrent class, L in the diffrent level, maz in the diffrent class and level. all my best mates in such a diffrent class with me. so i had no one in class to talk with.
but luckily god just sent me this two guys. that are EIZZU and EJAT. thy had been with me whle anniera , sheena ,maz, L are not with me.they just made me laugh day by day, seriously. thanks a lot. without you guys, i dont have any mood to go to school everyday. thanks guys, you are my best friend :)) eventhough you are guys but u guys understand me so much! :), you guys replace the L,aniera, maz, and sheena. sometimes, with them, i dont know who should i choose to hang out with, uhm,
why does that fucking person did this to me, if not because of L and other mates wakes me, i think i'll be drawning in your such lieness. fuck! siot gle, you lie had leave me so many question that i want to ask you, and the major answer i should say to you is "BABI" altough i my whole life i never say anything like that to my dearest friend. hey you, i still remember your words " jangan risau, ape pun i always backup you, takpe." and that freaking words just only a words kan, yeah, to make you gave you money or even my loyatyness to some ppl. ehh, siot je. thanks L,MAZ,ANIERA,EJAT,EIZU, cause waking me up. especially L, he told me a thousand times, but i just dont listen to him, and still being friend with her.and now i realized how stupid i are and thank you cause there for me. :) and i dont know why when she in trouble i stood her up and backed her up when anything comes up, but when i was my turn she just turn her self away and said doesnt want to get involve. bodoh kan? ini ke kawan. luckily i asked farhana about that thing and she just told me everything that i dont know and i dont undestand. syera,iera,farhana. thanks guys because telling me what i suppose to know, then only i knew betapa bodoh nya aku.
kawan kawan kawan, susah nak pilih? yeah, mmg btl, i dont know why they being so childish in this matter. tak matang.pathetic.
yeahh, i give all credits to L,ejat,eizzu,aniera,maz. sumpah, thanks for being there for me. only you guys know what i feel deep inside. especially L, he never leave me alone. altough i get a lot of trouble everytime. and he always know the way to make me happy and laugh once again. :)
ok, that my life in school, and now turn when i get back home. it turn even worser.
as i inside my house, automaticilly will had a fight with my sister, bazilah, i dont why we dont get along as we used to be past years, but we had a fight with a small matter such as food, books or even room. and now i dont even share my room anymore with her because she fed up with me and she moving upstairs. uhm, and once again i dont had anyone to talk with. anymore. she dont believe me now, so do my eldest sister, wafiqah, anything i say was a big lie, altough it was the biggest truth. bodoh kan? my brother ,afiq dont used to talk so, die pendiam, my youngest brother akmal, he go to school in the noon so i dont have much time to talk with him, and my mum get back late at 9 or 10 p.m and when i want to talk with her, she already in bed. and my dad, uhm, i dont have much to say because he's in dubai, doing his never-end work, and get home only triple a year. i really miss him because i always spent time with him, and he always listen to me, never fail me to get what i want and entah lah, he never scold me even i've done something wrong. and sometimes, my other sibs get jealous. i love you papa! :). and i miss you very much, i so sad becuase i cannot talk and bising with you anymore. and go shopping like we used to be. i remember, when i get in trouble that is when i lost my phone and get back so late night, you worried about me instead of scolding me. i cant forget those days when you taking good care of me with no violent way been used. you never let me cry and never let me down. :) i love you.
and every evening i will go lepak with my friends.if it not in school or burger n such,(our place), but sometimes you guys came to me, especially sheena. she always listen to me. i love you.and until now i remember her words, " i never leave you even anyone trying to steal me away from you" and i get hold of that words until now and forever.thanks
and yeahh, at night i used to talk with my friends. my shah alam mates. best mates, like supp,nano, zuhur ,EIZZU,EJAT and my mr L.
eizzu, even i met him at school, he always call me and cheer me up such as sing for me, scream with me, talk about boys, gossiping and supported me. and i just love if i'm teaching him mathematics because he always asked me why!? haha :D and the word when he siad in front of all the people and he just said "jo,thanks for taking care of me and thanks for being my best friend, i appricate your help very much." ohh, that words just made me wanna cry. thanks eizu,i'll be there for you too :)
and after that ejat take place. he call me especially at evening to talk about his lonelliness while aniera been away, kesian ejat, aniera takde, and aniera told me to take a good care of ejat while she;s been away, awww! such a sweet couple! ahah :DD and ejat he just know my problems and know how to slove it.
without this two guys i think i would be so lonely especially when aniera,maz ,syeena and L away. aww!
and the last part when L called me. he never forget to call me everyday, in the morning,after school, after his tennis session and before he go to bed. awwww! he just know what is in my mind and what i feel. even he just a bestest friend! he my BESTEST FRIEND EVER! because he always there for me.and i never felt lonely when he;s with me. and the way he made me laugh and smile just make my day bright. and entah lah, he such a good listener and a good counsler and he told me what i suppose to do when i;m i two diffrent way.and he never forget to count the day. :) he always had the way to made me smile once again and he always have a paint to color my day.
L,MAZ,EJAT,SHEENA,EIZU,ANIEA. THANKS FOR BEING THERE FOR ME. I LOVE YOU.


there's nothing much to say ;0. you are my bestest friend.